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Friday, May 15, 2020
Thursday, April 30, 2020
Art As Medicine #1 - Mandala con...
I struggled with the bright Fuschia at first thinking it was too "much" but I charged along with it anyways. |
Water
What is flowing through me?
As I color I pay attention to the thoughts, feelings, memories, impressions etc. that surface. I also pay attention to what other themes pop up when I am not creating.
- a deeper understanding/acknowledgment of my trauma history and the direct effects the unhealthy ways I've adapted have on my everyday life
- currently in transition and uncomfortable in the unknowns
All finished! |
Earth
What is shifting and integrating?
After finding myself thawing out of a cycle of stuffing and freezing my feelings it seems that my emotions are relocating themselves into my daily life. Feeling into the discomfort as it arose during the creation of this mandala helped me to understand, accept, and integrate this rather than revert to older patterns of stuffing, judging, and condemning my experience.
Wednesday, April 29, 2020
Wednesday, September 6, 2017
Amazing fungus found along the trail...looked very ethereal in the forest.... |
Yesterday, I woke up from a dream where I was an apparition standing over my sister's bed with two other apparitions. She was just starting to wake up because the other two appartitions were doing things to get her attention. When they would make movements and noise to mess with her the lights would blink and there would be wind moving at her.
I didn't realize I was an apparition and was growing quite frustrated that every time I tried to talk to or get my sister's attention she couldn't hear me. Eventually, the other two increased their efforts and she started to yell into thin air, "What the hell is happening?!?" and started clawing at the air trying to feel around for something causing it.
I started to become pretty distressed watching her struggle and increasingly frustrated that I couldn't get through to her. I increased my efforts and started yelling and realized my words and movements were creating wind and light.
That's when I realized I was an apparition too!!
Monday, August 29, 2016
Mask Off
My voice
Underneath these tears
The thick welling caught in the back of my throat
Still I chant
Extremities of my skin
Tight with holding
Still I chant
Emotions
Trapped deep within
Buried from long ago
Rise to the surface
Still I chant
You can know no pain
Like the present
Facing it fully
Steeped in vulnerability
Still you chant
These moments
Doorways
A deeper experience
Into walking as you
You chant
Mask off
Eyes open
Thank you
Friday, August 26, 2016
Tuesday, August 23, 2016
The Doorway
You stand at a doorway
You are so full
All it can do is pour forth
And expand those around you
It is up to you
To allow your fullness to exist
To be and believe in that stillness
That fullness
These are your gifts
We are waiting to be opened up
To experience the depths
Of who we are
To experience the depths
Of being alive
Thought
Is a pathway into that
You hold the key
To your doorway
For yourself
And those who resonate with you
Move Water Move
Move water move
I need to make it
Move water move
I need to breathe
Move water move
There's no more room here
Move water move
I need to breathe
Move water move
This place is crazy
Move water move
Nowhere to go
Move water move
No time to waste now
Move water move
No more to hold
They told me young
No room for tears here
They tell me now
To stand up strong
Move water move
There's no more room here
Move water move
I need to breathe
I know this place
Is filled with guns now
I know these men
That they'll use bombs
I know this place
There might be children
Move water move
No time to waste
I know our hearts
They hold the world's song
I know our eyes
We see it all
Just one more day
Of holding in me
Move water move
It won't be long
Move water move
This place is crazy
Move water move
I need to breathe
Locust? growing from Maple - Interspecies Canoodling |
Move water move
No time to waste now
Move water move
Please let me breathe
I know our hearts
Can hold the world's pain
I know our minds
Don't make no sense
Move water move
We need to stand strong
Move water move
This has to end
I know our hearts
Want something different
People I meet
Don't want this pain
So tell me friends
What can we do now
Don't hide yourself
Don't hide your pain
Move water move
We can do this
Move water move
We will breathe
Move water move
We are ready
Move water move
It's time to change
Monday, August 22, 2016
Float
Chapel Pond - Adirondacks, NY |
There is a beautiful moment held between this land looking up at the clouds
Heart turned towards the skies, floating in a mountain pond
Ears under the water
The only sound is the effort of my breath
It doesn't sound so effortless after all
The earth can support us
That which we are made from
A beautiful space to be
Dragonfly dances around me
There is beauty everywhere
Practicing Is The Practice
The Weaver - Point Au Roche, NY |
That moment in meditation when you decide to return to the practice.
Even when you've opened your eyes a couple of times.
Started to talk to someone in the room.
Picked up your phone to search for something online.
These moments are the juice of the practice. It is easy to sit when life is in the flow that you want. But, do you abandon your practice when things get tough? How about when there's people around? Or, when your mind is racing over and over and over? I know I do!
It is in these moments that the practice transmutes into life and the two become much more woven together. The need to achieve something from the practice lessens. It won't be another thing to add to your "I'm not good enough at this" list. You'll know there is nothing to be good at here.
The practicing is the practice.
The beautiful practice.
Your strength is in choosing to return. Each time you choose to return your path becomes stronger and more woven together. It's a shift from placing attention on all the things you may be doing wrong or not doing enough of.
When you focus on returning to the practice, you build a "muscle" and begin to see your inner strength. It is important to see that.
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